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of Ups and Downs in Life

So life’s been quite hectic recently, with deadlines and milestones came into game. That’s nothing new. But what makes it a good game is that it involves controlling variables that are beyond my reach. It’s a game of the mind.

Just a couple of days ago, I got myself into a major road accident and by God’s grace I am perfectly fine. Without a single scratch on my body. I wasn’t fast on the wheel, but somehow my mind was rushing, rushing from a place to another just to solve some problems on site so that it can meet the deadlines. I do know that certain issues are beyond my control but as my “kiasu-ness” kicks in, I pushed the limit of my responsibility and taking extra miles to make sure things get done. Well, I just can’t take failure. After the accident took place, I was somehow calm and first thing that came into my mind was “Mike, Relax”. I somehow came into perfect sense that not everything can be controlled by me no matter how hard I try. Just like the break pedal, I press it hard enough and with the help of ABS, the car still skidded due to the “oily” road condition. I tried my best, but its beyond my control.

Sometimes we have all the knowledge and skills needed to get something done, but if the environment does not permit us to, we still hardly achieve it. Guess I just have to accept the fact that not everything can be under my control.

Have Faith, in Him.

Categories: Life, Random Thoughts

of Age, Self-Confident and Fear

April 25, 2012 Leave a comment

So… the Girlfriend and I went to Damai Central two weekend ago to take from fresh air and our of random, I took a shot of the picture above – a young child running around happily without a single thread on the body. I took my time and watched him playing along the beach (Don’t worry, I am not a paedophile). He run and run and run, stepping on to sands and the water, collecting every single weird stuff he could find without any fear and without any worries. I started to think, why we human, as we grow older, we tend to lose that adventurous cells in ourself like what’s in us when we are young. We tend to lose confident in ourself and our own ability in doing certain task and fear starts to grow in us.

I wonder, if that adventurous cells never die off in me, how far would I already gone?

Bring back that self-confident in you and start running. Bring out the best in yourself and stop doubting your own ability. You will never know how far you can go if you never give it a try.

Blessed Day.

of Love and Expectations

So recently I’ve heard heaps of sad-love-stories from people who are close to me. Marriage problems, betrayals, wrong decisions… you name it. All these sort of forced me to give a deep thought on this issue of Love, which have caused thousands (or maybe millions?) to kill themselves.

Love, what a big word. As if I am qualified to talk about this topic. Anyway, I have always link the word LOVE with the word EXPECTATIONS. We always hear songs and poems talking about love without any expectations, care without hoping anything in return. But is that really the case in our real life? Personally, I know I always put in expectations in any relationships I am in. For example, when I love someone, I would had hope that she will love me back, someday, somehow. When I care so much for someone, I expect that he or she would care for me in returns, or at least appreciates me. Aren’t all these expectations?

Read on only if you agree with my statements above.

Expectations varies from case to case, and it will never be a fair case. We can put in tonnes of expectations in one relationship but less in the next. But I dare to say that one thing is constant, expectation grows. Imagine that you got a crush on a girl and you hope that one day she will notice you, and not crush your heart. Soon after she starts to notice you, you put in hope that someday she would give you a little chance to be with her. So now you two are together, you expect her to be loyal to you, to reply your messages, to say “I love you” everyday…and the list goes on. Soon as she fulfilled all these, your expectations grow bigger and expect her to tell you before she went out with friends. This would further develop to tell you who she is going out with and where are they heading to. Lastly, you would expect her to get your permission before she went out with friends. So what happen to the “I only hope that you will give me a chance, that’s all”? Oh humans… (I know the girlfriend will use what I write here to backfire me, hahaha!)

From my observations and experiences, expectation grows in relative of its fulfilment. It increases themselves as soon as the former are fulfilled. That explained why our expectations tends to be less when we are in some unhappy relationships. I’ve seen a friend of mine whose partner was far from homeland. All what my friend expect from the partner was just to meet up whenever there’s a chance and that he would be safe and sound. My friend never care how the partner treated her, just a little good deed would makes her flew to the moon and forget about all what is bad. But were just wondering, how long would this low expectation stays? Unless they are forever in this long distance relationship.

Judging by what I myself wrote here, I start to realise that the girlfriend sort of fulfilled almost all my expectations on her. Cause now my expectations went on to the highest level: Expect her to know what I am expecting. Man, now I feel bad. But nah, that shows that how good she is, that is why I would put in such expectation, right? Hahaha… she is indeed a great blessing for me.

Peace out.

On the Same Ship

October 4, 2011 Leave a comment

So my life has been quite challenging recently with random challenges hit on me – career, financial, relationship etc. Stressed out at times, but I know God is in control.

Anyway, I believe most of us ever come across issues where conflicts stirred up in between colleagues, friends, couples, or even among family members. Well, me too, were caught in between such issues. A lot of it.

Couple of days ago I went kayaking with a few of my colleagues and while busy doing photo-shooting, I observed this little scene that caused me to think – one of my colleague were having fun kayaking together with his wife. Half way through, the wife got tired and rested her paddle which caused the kayak to be unstable for a while. It tilted to left and right. But my colleague did not just stop there, but continue to paddle at his best. Soon after, he got his rhythm back and once again the kayak was able to move forward smoothly. Couple of minutes later, the wife gained back her energy and she start paddle again, and they manage to move faster than before! Let just say if my colleague were to make a fuss about the situation, or maybe got angry with the wife for stop paddling. I am sure that they will ended up being stagnant in the middle of the pond, or even worst – ended up falling into the pond.

A lot of time in life, we put expectations in others. We expect everyone to contribute the same amount as we are. We expect everyone to put in the same effort as we are. And when one party failed to do so, we start to think that life is not fair. Start to complain that why do we have to put in more effort than the others. Soon before we knew it, we ourself stop putting in effort cause we think it is not fair. And hence, the whole structure collapsed. But if we were to endure that short period of time, and continue to put in our effort to make things right, I believe we will all ended up going on smoothly again!

Why fight, when we know we are on the same boat?

Engineering Survey

August 10, 2011 Leave a comment

So I had been dealing with fresh engineers, supervisors, interns and trainees for the past few weeks which I were suppose to share with them my knowledge. Or at least let them know what they suppose to know. As a freshman in the field, I have awfully limited knowledge and experiences to share with them. You know, the blind leads the blind…

But, there are one skill that I consider very essential – Engineering Survey. Reason? You need that in any construction work! I used to think that we engineer do not need to master this skill as it is usually done by supervisors or surveyors. But then again, how are you going to make sure they do not cheat on you if you know nothing on it? My views changed.

Have a blessed day ahead!

Patiently Waiting

August 1, 2011 3 comments

Blessed Day people! So I always drive by Jalan Tabuan while on the way back from work and this doggie caught my attention. Unlike those stray doggies that we normally see on the road, this particular one were not running around looking for food, but had always been sited at the same position and seem to be waiting for something. With high hope in the eyes. It reminds me of the infamous Hachiko.

It just makes me think. Why doggies can have such great patient and high hope, and I get fed up and impatient easily. I guess that is something that I need to learn, from a creature much lesser-smart than me.

Wish you all (and me) a great August ahead!